Goodbye Mindshare

I've always wanted to move back Malacca but there were no promising news on my job hunt. And I've plan to stayed on in KL at the moment but thought of joining my ex-boss. Probably moving back is just not for me untill I received a job offer in which this company is willing to wait for me for 2 month.

Last Friday, 24th June 2011 was my last day in Mindshare, after 1 year & 5 months here. It was the most difficult resignation I've encountered as my boss was behaving very unproffesionally. She has delayed my resignation and I've been asking her every week for 4 times and each time she will just brush it away or to raise her voice asking me to find a replacement for her. Since it is not moving between us, I've raised up to the management - Grp Director and the CEO. Grp Director would like to help me by persuading my boss to release me with early notice without incuring any compensation but her effort failed because my boss disagree. In order to get out early, I need to compensate a month's salary. For the past 1 month, I was treated invisible and my boss humiliated me in front of the clients and my colleagues. It was hard to face each day but am glad that I made it.

Sometimes I wonder, am I being stupid? Why I am still holding on the peace making attitude in me when others are provoking me and insulting me? I gain nothing. Some praised me for my patience. On my last day, my colleagues made me a cardboard me in how I dress to work - in jeans, a baby-T and my office pass card hanging on my neck. They are just being nice and wanted to create something to remember on my last day. Yes, this is me, this is how I projected myself during my tenure here. All in all, I'm a plain Jane. They made me carry this 'mini me' for lunch as well and to get signature from other colleagues if happen to bum into them. And as usual, my boss was being bitchy again by scolding them for not doing work but doing nonsense. Well, I've predicted something will happen.

I look at it and give a thought. Is this me? Like what others said - am boring person & quiet. But why am behaving this way? For my tenure here, I was not motivated at all. The work, the environment and the people around me just made me doesn't feel belong. On my last day, I feel exactly the same feeling as how am feeling each day. No excitement, no missing, just plain. Is this normal?

But the bottom line is, I do not feel regrets of leaving Mindshare. Probably of what had happened and how am being treated by my boss. Despite the unwanted areas that I do not fancy, it added a new experience of journeying with different kind of people out there in a media agency environment, the media learning experiences and all the negotiation skills with clients & media owners. Though the roads were rough, but i'm thankful that I've survived through.